awake.

sometimes, i found the solemness of my day at the end of the night..so quiet,,just me and my mind.
might be that that caused me got awaken in the middle of the night, not only once, but several times...kinda like it though.

-time for bubbling around-
just want to let you know, i don't feel any passion with my work lately. you know what i should do with it ? sighhh...
seems my life hasn't move since i got back from wonderland...either work nor love. sh*t.
probably there's something wrong with me.
do you think it's wrong if i want more ? guess not.

now all of my things leads to nowhere..
damn.



*ps. you know how many times he dissapointed me ?? many times. countless. so sick of it. makes me appreciate my B more..

dejection.

I feel sad, i feel bad...when i thought i have someone whom i can rely on, who caress me, whom i can share my life with, he's dissapeared...
Everyday communicate, then now suddenly stopped..
I know its only for a day, but he really didn't reply any of my messages...also in the ym, i know he's there, but he didn't say anything to me...
What did i do wrong ? if i'm wrong, please tell me what is wrong...please don't make me hanging on the moment like this...it hurts me...i'm so tired with this crap...just give me a prove that you mean it...